Hello! I’ve been kinda out and depressed for a while and people doesnt know that. I kept that a secret except here. And yeah, Im still depressed, which I will be talking about later. But perhaps, this GIF below symbolizes what I feel right now, not totally relieved and still worried. :)
There are five things I really wana blog about tonight.
My Kuya Don and I chatted on Facebook last night. He is our eldest brother, the best among us siblings, I believe. He asked me whether I already have a boyfriend or not and said that having a boyfriend is not bad at all. But I reckon, I still believe that it’s a distraction I really dont need at the moment. And also, I could tell that he missed us, SO MUCH - I have to emphasize, because he kept saying that he’s always there for us when we would need him. The later, he called me. His voice was so sweet and said thank you for the time I spared for talking to him. He told me to focus on my studies and be always open to him and even tell him who my boyfriend is when that time comes. I frowned at the thought, that’s really out of my vocabulary right now. Hahaha
A message for my kuya, I miss you. And I know you miss us too. I love you, and just take care, even though you havent been at home for a long time already, I have forgotten you, of course, cause you’re my kuya. You are working hard, and I understand that. I love you Kuya.
Next is that, I was back at our classroom today. Awww, IV- Einstein, I missed you. It’s quite sometime that I was gone for co-curricular activities. I missed my seat, my seatmates, my cool buddies, my classmates, and the class routine. Hahaha. Well, this day has been totally awesome. Lots of simple yet overwhelming things happened. Much to my surprise, I enjoyed our Tango practice in Mapeh which will be presented next week, oh my freaking gosh!
This is totally simple but honestly? I really appreciate it. Hahaha. We were able to have our SSG meeting and I was also able to collect the narrative reports I asked them to do. Simple right? Whateven.
And yeah, our last period was awesome! TLE. Yeyy! I was able to answer like six questions Mr Ponce threw. And it made me proud of myself.
The most miserable. Yeah, I am truly worried right now about my parents’ reaction if I would tell them tomorrow that I am still not the 1st honor in our class. Im not sure of the news yet but I hope its not true. I REALLY PRAY SO. Well, there’s really nothing I could do, is there? It’s God’s will. Of course, its my fault cause I havent exerted much effort on my studies, but I am sorry. I really wana be the valedictorian. I hope its not too late yet.
And I know…
BTW people, this week, I have a strong feeling, that Im gonna be busier. Either Ill end up crying myself to sleep and asking for my parents’ forgiveness for disappointing them about my rank, which is of greater probability, or whatever Ill end up doing. Just hoping for the best! Think positive as they said.
Oh, Im also taking the Xavier University - Ateneo de Cagayan’s Entrance Exam this Saturday at Butuan City. Wish me luck!